MY FEEBLE PEN'S UNCERTAIN, ATTEMPTED RETURN    (5:25pm, 10-7-2024; at KOFFI North, Palm Springs, California)

   
   
pausing here    
this afternoon    
with pen    
and paper    
in hand again    
in hopes    
of tapping    
back into    
my innate    
creative muse s    
too long neglected    
too long distracted    
ever mysterious    
inner realms    
to try retuning    
back into    
channeling    
and releasing    
whatever spontaneously arisen    
free flow purge    
of perceptive    
conscious    
and subconscious    
self expression    
might    
to my surprise    
possibly arise    
from simply    
trusting in    
that catalytic action s    
co creative    
potentially manifestive    
intuitive process    
here once again    
especially after    
these last seven    
years or so    
of my    
not    
having been able    
to do so    
at all    
of not having    
been able    
to self expressively    
release and create    
some newly inspired    
more meaningfully interesting    
more powerfully moving    
insightful  new poem s    
too long absent    
too far gone    
so long awaited    
free flow spill s    
fully manifested    
sudden rebirth s
long awaited return
back into
my life again  
to so naturally    
and seemingly    
almost effortlessly    
come up    
through me    
to freely arise    
and spill forth    
from me    
through my intention s    
conjuring pen    
in hand    
here now    
once again    
old  old soul    
heart  of sun    
mind  of infinite    
mystery beyond    
open spirit    
and soul    
of transformationally    
transcendent being s    
fully awakened    
innate    
oneness awareness s    
enlightened being    
whose higher consciousness    
attunement s intunement    
is so deeply    
so boundlessly aligned    
with the ineffable    
even greater mystery s    
vast  timeless    
cosmic ocean    
of lost    
ancient  spiritual wisdoms    
innately shielded    
in the    
immutably  ineffable    
sublime  divine    
highest  vibrational    
love and light    
oneness    
of all    
that is    
but which    
to my presently    
unastonished    
slight disappointment s surprise    
now appears    
to have only    
brought me back    
to here    
after these last    
past seven plus    
disconnected years    
now so quickly    
flown by    
back to this    
my present state    
here now    
yet again    
back to this    
rather flat lined    
anemic    
messy    
square one
semi incontinent spill    
from my    
reckless pen s    
perhaps prematurely attempted    
vain return    
back    
to a place    
where it once    
for so long    
truly belonged    
but now    
perhaps    
no longer has    
any further rights    
nor worthy claims    
to neither trespass
return to    
to seek solace    
direction    
nor meaning in    
to be at    
to occupy    
nor to call    
my very own  
here in this  
my present lifetime s  
still unfolding    
ongoing journey  
through this wondrous  
world of experiential  
living  loving  
struggling  suffering  
learning  growing  
ever evolving    
life lessons  
of and for  
each and all  
of our individual  
and collective  
eternal  human spirits  
and souls  
which will hopefully  
perhaps  
one day  
some day  
sooner or later  
come to be  
more universally recognized  
fully realized  
lived and known  
as my  
innermost sanctuary s    
one and only  
true  
home  sweet home  
hid deep within  
the unseen  
mystical  
core heart beat  
spiritual center  
of my greater  
living spirit s  
eternal  quickened soul  
still silently abiding  
here within this  
my only temporal  
mortal  human body s  
remaining time left
here  
in this illusory  
world  
anymore  
ever again    
at all