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Control Me
the fight is tiring
and drives me
to despair the
demon inside
is hard to beat
build it from my
own DNA & let
it become much
stronger than me
would you please
tame the demon
guide me home
strip me bare &
make me wear
my vulnerability
breathe life into
this weary body
bring back to life
my fragile frame
erase the shame
please take me to
your blissful space
enslave me & break
the control freak in me
and drives me
to despair the
demon inside
is hard to beat
build it from my
own DNA & let
it become much
stronger than me
would you please
tame the demon
guide me home
strip me bare &
make me wear
my vulnerability
breathe life into
this weary body
bring back to life
my fragile frame
erase the shame
please take me to
your blissful space
enslave me & break
the control freak in me
Published 14th Oct 2024
Author's Note
About my fight with bulimia.
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14th Oct 2024 2:08pm
Oh I do hope you overcome this! The lack of trust does indeed lead to anxiety-based control-freakism, where one feels a need to control their environment in order to feel safe. Trust is one antidote; staying in one's lane is another!
Here's to your honesty and willingness to change. Too many aren't and have no desire!
Here's to your honesty and willingness to change. Too many aren't and have no desire!
15th Oct 2024 5:44am
You are so right, many don't want to change. There's trauma underneath my eating disorder, so that needs working on since it keeps the coping intact. I'm determined to overcome this.
Thanks heaps for your visit and comment, Ahavati, I appreciate you 💕
Thanks heaps for your visit and comment, Ahavati, I appreciate you 💕
Anonymous
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15th Oct 2024 5:53am
There's many people who try to fill a void, whether it's with drugs, alcohol, gambling, food etc. With me it's food (sugars) that became my drug and I'm sorry to hear you turn to food too.
It's indeed a horrible disorder to have, working on it. Thanks heaps for your comment, D :-)
It's indeed a horrible disorder to have, working on it. Thanks heaps for your comment, D :-)
14th Oct 2024 2:57pm
Control, we won't admit it, we all want it.
Life is so much easier when you can let go.
Love your poem.
Life is so much easier when you can let go.
Love your poem.
15th Oct 2024 6:04am
Letting go is my biggest challenge. Thanks heaps for your comment, I appreciate it :-)
14th Oct 2024 5:08pm
it is very bad when you are not in control.. whatever is the case... hope you get through this ok...
15th Oct 2024 6:04am
Yes, it is, even control is out of control. Thanks heaps for your comment & wishing me well :-)
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Anonymous
14th Oct 2024 11:39pm
When the fight is so long & exhausting, finding strength is a challenge. A brave & relatable piece, this
15th Oct 2024 6:14am
Anonymous
14th Oct 2024 11:47pm
What we are supposed to be and what we really are and want to do. We succumb to feelings that peel flesh from bone. Great poem.
15th Oct 2024 6:18am
Those are some very wise words. Thanks heaps for dropping by & leaving your thoughts.
15th Oct 2024 3:42am
Powerful write, Duende. Sending prayers and positive energy your way, in hopes you slay that demon. Into the list it belongs. Thanks so much for sharing something, that couldn't have been easy. Appreciate you.
DL
DL
15th Oct 2024 6:28am
Sharing something so personal isn't easy, but I've wrote about if before - all the way back to 2016. To me it's important that others who struggle with similar issues know they're not alone.
Thanks heaps for your comment, prayers and the RL, it means a lot. I appreciate you :-)
Thanks heaps for your comment, prayers and the RL, it means a lot. I appreciate you :-)
15th Oct 2024 9:53am
You've got this! Sending you positive vibes and support.
They say a problem shared is a problem halved (maybe not halved but hopefully is reduced...bit by bit).
Try and be strong.
They say a problem shared is a problem halved (maybe not halved but hopefully is reduced...bit by bit).
Try and be strong.
16th Oct 2024 11:12am
Thanks heaps for your comment, the smiles & the positive vibes. I appreciate it.
15th Oct 2024 2:36pm
This is so revealing, and I feel the pleading for help coming from within. Intense spill on the page.
16th Oct 2024 11:12am
That you can feel my words is a huge compliment. Thanks heaps for dropping by :-)
16th Oct 2024 2:12am
It's always a comfort to have a support system. It's vital in my opinion.
One step at a time.
I'm rooting for you:)
One step at a time.
I'm rooting for you:)
16th Oct 2024 11:12am
One step at a time it is.Thanks heaps for your comment and for rooting for me :-)
Anonymous
16th Oct 2024 8:41am
It's the abandon and vulnerability...the raw nakedness of Spirit
that drives and magnetizes pure compassion
for your condition
much respect
Naaj
that drives and magnetizes pure compassion
for your condition
much respect
Naaj
16th Oct 2024 11:16am
