The Influence

i never party
i don't go out on weekends to bars
i don't have a dds number
so i can go to work

work

wor..

i don't buy alcohol
cause i don't drink
no drinking
don't get drunk

just a sip..

fuck

i don't take uppers
i don't buy downers
cant associate with it
no more friends

no more friends
no more..

drugs

home is dead
only devil faces
im just like her
but the mirror cracked

and they watched..
and they helped..
and i..

i..

i..

i died

i was lost
no where else
just a messenger bag
a pack of smokes

alone
deserted
abandoned

but i..

i was already dead
so it wasent hard

to survive
as a woman
an underaged
unemployed
unloved
child

the hourglass never empty's
neither did my appetite
when i found it
found me

new people
new candy..

new life
same life..

but it was still only September
nothing but sand
nothing but time
the party's still going..

still going

after all..
its only July

why would i never

never

never drink

never score

never live

cell phones are stupid
to expensive
a call?

hey you
your back in town?
im far..
too far..
its cool
i don't need them
need you
i don't..
i need you

im alone
alone
alone
not alone..

the hourglass never empty's
neither does my appetite
when i found it
found me

new people
new candy..

new life
same life..

a new perspective
changes
stability
routine...

i loathe routine..
and i don't score..

ever..

but i still smoke
always will
always can
always me

getting my shit together
slowly..
surely..

but im getting bored..

i cant party
i wont go out on weekends to bars
i don't have a dds number
so i can go to work
work

wor..

i don't buy alcohol
cause i love to drink
no drinking
don't get drunk

just a sip..

fuck

i don't take uppers
i don't buy downers
cant associate with it
no more friends

no more friends
no more..

drugs