The Same Person Everywhere I Go

I watched another Heidi Priebe video on the fearful avoidant attachment style. The style that is so me. Heidi Priebe is a YouTuber who often speaks on attachment theories.
 
She says the goal of healing from this attachment style is to become able to be the same person everywhere I go.
 
And all I can truly think is what...? What does that mean...? For someone like me...? The person who wants to spit in the face of those I receive kindness and love from? The person who would scream and wake up those if I lived in an apartment? The person who feels suffocated from others being around her? The person who acts recklessly and has been in multiple psych wards?
 
What the fuck is that supposed to mean?!
 
Something tells me that even this brilliant lady with the same attachment style has likely not suffered in the way that I have. Does she even know what it's like to be so disabled to the point where you truly cannot work and get SSI checks? Does she even know what it's like to have a dark side that is so psychopathic and cruel that people have told you you're a lost case?
 
Easy for her to say.
 
Truly easy.