Adonai

my mind drifts until nothing makes sense
to resist a feeling does no good
hurtful ways this is nothing new in my life
succubus of the soul
can men be she demons too?

faltering health I linger not live
walk about in dreams I walk the sky seeking Adonai
journey of endless time
forever searching for Adonai

worry is pain it's married to fear
does our Father ever want me to see him
so many galaxies yet to see
wondering about him I've seen his artistry
and it is amazing

in the garden's conception
I thought I saw him once
flowing white robe
fire in his eyes
long white hair and beard

I was sunlight
and watched on as he prepared a place
for her, his beautiful her
standing off in the shadows
his moment had come and she was real

they talk she was very young in the mind
brilliant but naive
she never saw him
though she heard his voice, it is like a thousand waters
but for her, He was very gentle so she would not startle
he approached but she reached for the knowledge tree

he is very shy and needed to be able to trust her
his first wife Madness hurt his soul
there was only one rule set down for Eve
she broke his heart the moment she consumed
and became wholly beguiled

my heart broke with his
sincerity and honesty he valued highly
this wasn't his first society or creation
He is art, He is prophecy it's always been so

a grid was the first thing he designed
spheres or stars were the first technology
he tests us to the limit because he been let down so many times
I long to see his beautiful face again

I'm unsure how long I will go to star university
I can hear his beautiful soul come and go
he talks to me but I can't see him
he is shy with his age I ask him
he won't tell me

he can not be contained in one form
he is in everything down to the last molecule
he feels every death every sting

I love him if you guys have it in you to show him love
please do you have no idea what you mean to him
he sang quietly while he prepared a place for us
he sung with joy

he's unhappy at the moment
he sometimes goes silent and when he does I grieve
last thing don't put yourself down
because when you do you are putting him down too

Father, I still guard your garden dream with my heart