{un}still life study

 
I want you to know me
in ways no one ever has before  
or will again
 
beyond the weight...
of my breasts cupped in your palms
beyond the curve of my ass in your grasp
as my hips undulate  
matching your rhythm  
 
I want you to study me
research my thoughts
my heart
memorize my memorabilia  
...for later
 
learn every contour & scar
immerse yourself in them
into my being
until you feel who I am
at a molecular...spiritual level
 
just as you bury the heft of your aggression
so deeply within you feel my heartbeat  
pulsing against your throb
absorb me like osmosis
 
understand why I ramble awkwardly
giggle with my whole body
or turn suddenly silent
when life is...just too much  
be prepared
...to implement the remedy
 
& why naked truth...
will always seduce me
long before a kiss
or a touch
 
why my breath hitches when you look at me
...in that particular way
how I lean into our conversation  
when you take my mind down certain lanes
exploring uncharted territory openly
...together
 
settle yourself into the encyclopedia of me
& internalize my hard drive  
until you lock onto my core
making a home within my soft
protecting...without controlling
 
I need you to feel what I'm saying  
without words
just a lingering glance
or a caress
it isn't always about sex
 
it's you
& it's me
cultivating
an unfiltered we
 
 
 
 
exploring thoughts...