Masturbation

i pray so reluctantly
like begging the father
to punish sparingly
choose the switch instead of the belt
 
my life is a shadow
casting itself upon my dreams
my dreams are sparks
that fail to ignite amidst the rain
 
screaming through the phone
you only hear static
 
i'm just a noise
 
a lack of definition
 
six by six, concrete
silent and complete
intravenous circulation
shallow reciprocation
 
just another form of rehabilitation
 
and another fucking medication
 
it's all just masturbation