gentle

living a life not knowing where it will lead is frightening
still onward I march
seeking something beautiful
not knowing what I will find

when I was young I was sure that everything was lovely
now I'm not sure
when good days can turn black in a minute
it's unsettling to find things are unsure

since there is no going back we are ushered forward
even if you make no choice forward time goes
gentle knowledge it doesn't matter your intent
some things are chosen for you

I hurt with the occurrences of the world
something I can't control
there are things that happen in this world I wish I never knew
still here I am marching forward with my mind scarred

how will I ever have peace and wisdom
because to have peace my mind will have to be erased
then where is wisdom if I've forgotten all I know

it is a cruel world and I imagine cruelty rules behind the scenes
politics tells us very few of us have any say so
there are few elitist making choices for the masses
and if you're are poor forget about it

you're herded forward to what end I don't know it looks grim
I believe it's just the system of things
I wonder how much is real
and how many things are made up
to keep us in line

I try and weigh out what is common sense
and how much of it is outlandish
so much of what we're taught seems foolish
but my mind can only go so far on reaching for truth

I seek but don't find the answers
it's an internal struggle
to find eternal answers

in the dark elements I feel most at ease
even if that alienates me
at least I am being true to who I am

sacred silence answers for me
I've found sanctuary within my own soul
in the depths of knowledge I am accepted

as being an artistic soul
who isn't always liked
and yes I care
who doesn't want to be liked

time has a way of making a fool out of me
when the further I go to seek
the less I'm desired

I just don't think like others
not bad or good just different
it is my lot in life to be indifferent
silence is my friend
at least it's gentle