Double Cross (DARQ)

 
Disturb my fragile sensibility
Disrupt the expectations of my wanting
When I chase temporal things to a fault
I fall pray in my humility to the Holy Ghost haunting
Answering the warning signs with replies of faith imbued by the call

What if there is something to it
When we dismiss the claims for broken records on repeat
Discerning truth amid the chaos of another’s source of vain conceit

The word is alive and I’m dead to rights
When I live subject to something divine
Shadows cast of unseen lights
The end doesn’t answer to my timeline

When blood is oil to fuel the everlasting burn
We are all of us kindling for various fires
Whether passion or damnations urn
Our ashes are of grace or carnal desires

Blueprints for legacies to make reality the dream
When God bled to draw us into the purpose of it all
Spark the match in the light of the beam
Rays of heaven supersedes the fall

I keep running this race in circles
Learning to make believe
When it’s more than just something in my mind
Am I playing alive or dead?
Starving the ways that sins deceive
When all I see is how I’m blind
I only have vision when my eyes adjust to what You said

Calibrating hopes to the status of truth
When all I’ve done is fail myself
Bring me back to the innocence of my youth
Liberate me from my self made hell

When my humanity is its own cancer and decay
God save the monsters, when the unlovely are outcast
My heart is a bookie my conscience cannot pay
When my soul is in the collections of my past

All bets are off when I’m desperate for some compensation
True righteousness at odds with the echoes of this condemnation

You bore Yours, I bare mine
When love is a matter of imitation in this double cross
When everything is a matter of time
All my gains to be recounted loss

On which side of it all will I stand
As I reach out with a broken hand
Redemption and justice, of judgements and unfailing grace
Two edges of the same sword
Two facets of the Father’s face…