If I'm Gonna Die, I Wanna Still Be Me.

Last night, I was speaking to a friend about the dark truth of human nature. And one thing he said stood out to me. He said he saw a meme once about an ape having a discussion with a man. The man gloated about mankind and its accomplishments. All the ape could say was "Yes, that's true and good. However, you have to pay to live on this planet, and I don't."

This is why I don't think money is merely a tool like I've been told. I told my friend that it's a way to exert power and control over others. I also told him that I don't blame anyone for wanting to kill themselves at all. I personally wouldn't do it, but I get the people who take one look at this world and think, "Yeah, I'm done."

I think it's pretty telling when a therapist saying he quit his job because he wasn't able to help the patients who actually needed help. Because the ones who actually needed it had less money. Money encourages incredibly cruel behavior. Can't say I'm a communist either though. Because I don't think I can fix what has long been damaged.

I've actually seen someone type online that they no longer wanted to live because either you're a financial burden to everyone else or you work so hard, and you still don't get appreciated. I wouldn't doubt that the person exited this world.

But it makes me want to act. It makes me want to keep continuing to work on my art. For the people who feel this way. I want the world to know that there's someone out there who has a heart. As I've said before, I never want to sell my soul. I admit that I'm just one person. I admit that I'm imperfect. But I want to try.

I'll leave you with this quote by Peeta in Hunger games:

"I just keep wishing I could think of a way to show them that they don't own me. You know, if I'm gonna die, I wanna still be me."