tears

insidious dreamer where has your heart gone
to the limits of the abyss where once again my soul drifts
I've sought true love and came close but again I was wrong
I truly don't fit I forget I'm not mortal

slipping between worlds I spin
my sanity is shifting gears
I know I'm not what's expected but what is

the finality of losing you breaks my heart anew
and I lose more of my soul when you come in close then leave
I hear you when you tip toe in to make sure I'm okay

I stir to rise with a smile but it's my tears you desire
because my melancholy is more legitimate
my laughter is hollow and you can't bear it
you see me pulling back inside further, further until I disappear