Conflicted

I released the darkness
I released the pain
I released the guilt
What did I gain?

Nothing is what remains
I feel completely numb
All my emotions muted
What have I become?

Theres all this empty space
A hollow deep inside
An ache has taken over
When will it subside?

I feel like I'm not living
Yet not completely dead
Somewhere in the middle
Have I been mislead?

Trying to find the light
Has led me down this road
A path that leads to nowhere
Will I continue to erode?

Trying to fight the allure
Of being in that dark place
At least I felt something
Is it better to embrace?

If the light is so much better
And the darkness so adverse
If this is the way to happiness
Why does it seem worse?