take my sadness

Take my sadness
and turn it into silence
because I've already made
myself invisible
and what I really need
is for you to tie me down
with weights
and throw me into the ocean
where no one can hear my pain

Take my sadness
and turn it into guilt
because hell knows I know
how to wear that shit
like it's fucking fashionable
and when I'm down and out and
speechless with hating myself
add another layer
for me to bury myself in
cause we both know I make
this hell look like it doesn't hurt

Take my sadness
and throw it back in my face
when it turns to anger
and I rage against
these circumstances
that don't give two fucks
about anything I have to give
because nothing ever comes
from anything
and I'm flayed from even trying

My hands reach for you
and find empty air
your words reach for me
and find a blank stare