Sweet Agony

Sitting in a darkened room thinking about you
Thinking about us and the history we have  
 
Theres a part of me that loves you  
 
Im feeling lost without your presence  
 
My constant excuse and driving force has always been you
Everything that has gone bad in my life is your fault
Still I find myself in this moment wondering what you're doing  
I want to know who you're with and have I lost you for good  
 
I have found a real chance at happiness and peace
But its you that consumes my thoughts  
 
If I dont have you then who am I?  
 
I am a nobody chasing dreams and hopes
Secretly wanting to be decimated and tossed back into the pit
Considering giving everything up just to be with you again  
 
Is what Im gaining worth the price of losing you?  
 
So much time spent running from you wanting to be free
Now all I want to do is run to you and be your prisoner
Feel your cold embrace and your hand on my throat
Choking and siphoning the light from within me  
 
Sweet agony