woke up with your body on my mind

I still remember the shape of your body
the curve your breasts  
your hips
the way I could cup
your ass in my hands  
 
You kept your fingernails long  
and no lover has scratched me  
to pieces quite as well  
since I left the empty space  
in your bed  
for someone else to fill
 
Because you never had trouble
finding someone to fill
the empty space love
left in your heart  
and I know in hindsight  
I never really resided there  
 
We were all scent and touch  
undiluted chemistry  
destined to collide  
and burn with a passion  
that wasn't meant to last  
 
Though you always kept me  
coming back for more  
even when your mouth found  
other lips and fingertips  
to get lost in  
my face out of sight  
out of mind  
so easy to forget  
with the lights off  
and someone else inside you  
 
I remember how you'd apologise  
everytime  
down on your knees
arms in a vice around my legs  
begging me not to leave  
he meant nothing  
she meant nothing  
I meant...  
something  
 
But I was too young  
too dumb  
too in love with fairytale endings  
to untangle myself  
from the way your tears  
dripped into my soul  
and tied me down with puppet strings  
a slave to you  
a slave for you  
a broken girl chasing love  
where there was no love  
to be found  
 
And how strange it is  
that it's been fifteen years  
since I've seen your face  
kicked you out of my bed  
and said "I can't do this anymore"
 
But I still dream of you
dream of love unrequited  
dream of the shape of your body  
and the gentle brutality
of your nails on my skin
 
How strange  
that you're on my mind today  
when someone better  
fills my bed  
with better love  
better sex  
(but not a better body)  
than you  
 
Time might heal  
but it doesn't forget  
and memory won't let me  
forget the shape of you today