don't ask me

 
 
don't ask me to smile today
as Kurt has sat down his  
Jagstang and  
picked up a  
shotgun  
 
don't ask me to laugh
today as blue ran from
the sky terrified  
of man's  
waste
 
don't ask me to cry today as  
I let go of love and it fell  
from my hands like a  
dead bird seeking  
comfort in the  
cold selfish  
earth
 
don't ask me to wait today
as I have waited long
enough in the dirty
prison of my
life
 
waiting for something  
to return
 
waiting for something  
that has never been  
here  
 
waiting for something  
that will never
come
 
confusion  
 
illusion  
 
delusion
 
as I stand in rapt
amazement as
deep as the seven
seas
 
and as blind as the
oily scales of
justice
 
I know  
now
 
heros are cardboard  
cut outs on the
back of a
cereal  
box
 
the skies are wiser
than you
and
I
 
and love is a rotten  
fixed carnival  
game that
no one
wins
 
and all that waiting
gets you is
decay