truth and justice and the american way as heaven watches you bleed out

you gather the pity from the girls and boys real good
but I wonder if you would be so brave facing the soul and spirit of me
you ask why won't I just die after you poison us with your hate and lies
and who knows what else
I know my symptoms come and go and so do your moms
I have no signs of cancer according to my white blood cell count
and this bloating and gas began before you poisoned me with drug addiction
you knew my story because you watched it happen
my kids stripped of me and given to the system
where they were raped by so called Christians
the evidence swept under the rug
the damage already done I had completed all the systems programs
except one I was still on methadone testing randomly
week in and out for three years
until my youngest son came with a handprint on his face
I vowed to stick up for him and though the monster threatened
I stood up to him
still holding out hope on a man on a god on a system
that justice would be done
but I went crazy from ptsd when my children raped were kept from me
my visits stripped they believed the monsters there at Aegis
the police came taking me to the psych ward three days off metadone
and nearly dying the medical profession proved the system was boss
scaring me and torturing me I saw you face white man so called god
and I knew I didn't belong in there
you stalked my existence and beat my human family
then delivered me into the arms of another monster
some people are that way because they were abused
others it appears are actually your muppets in disguise
you wind up them up and then enjoy the ride
for their loyalty they will burn
but hey you'll cry them all the way to the fryer
saying you know you're guilty come on son let's go
then you will finally meet me your worst terror come to visit you
you see the weakness of my flesh do you really know me
you fucking coward standing behind the corrupt system of things
where women children and the poor are born into financial pits
and commanded claw and kill your way to the top
for this invisible white jesus who floats around
and lays a catch 22 on you
damned if you do he called you on the hotline but he didn't choose you
damn it what happen I thought you were good
have you ever got a good look at later at the ones who fuck with me
I even plead for my enemies because I know what is coming their way
and it's going to be my job to put you in a lake
he's trying to give you a shot at being kind to me
if you can't must love at least sympathy
he knows your intentions
he knows mine are pure
my soul is heavily armed
my body broken but not beat
and you have no explanation on how I still exist
you will never know me now but you will still face these eyes
I see a coward in hiding when I look at yours
so run to the one who makes you forget
the sea of forgetfulness mind erased
lay your instincts away with your dick
I will die with my sword in hand it is the truth