drunk

you and your accomplices upon my vow will go to jail for my symptoms that began long before I had a drug problem again thanks to you
you were shooting meth when you were with your first wife
I had never had such a scourge introduced into my life until you
I was drinking everyday yes, to forget you were fucking everyone who said yes
making them each think they were special when they were drunk
using your son as the bate
he would invite them and they came for the alcohol
and your dad what wait
like any predator to prey on the inibreated and weak
finally years later when my mind torn and broken
and looking back he probably started poisoning my food and drinks
to keep me in pain and out of his way
years later his son in tears and angry at the world told me
my mind and heart already broken snapped not for the first time
no with soul scarring pain from having ptsd and mistrust of law
and family yet again I was only guilty of a beer hear and there
and pretending my heart wasn't broken
as he made everyone else feel special
soon he graduated to cocaine to get the girls
later he confessed it was meth
that he knowingly got me addicted to
my heart and soul shatter and really know where to turn
I got addicted so he could get me out of his way
my belly bloated and my body in shame
I hid away my sexual feelings because he would call me beautiful
with his mouth then shame me with his hands
making sure I was body shamed telling me I'm the only one
who really loves you
I think now he never loved me but used me for my ex husbands cash
sex and bate for another broken, low self esteem victim to extort
the starved for love aren't picky don't you know
and this world celebrates the husk
and women who are told they are used up are picked apart
with lies and manipulation he chooses his accomplices
poisiong me physically and mentally pulling me close just to stab me in the back using other so special ugly women  to do it