Uniquely Silent

 
yes, I agree Father I am too sensitive
it is better not to care, to be numb and disconnected
and only sharing my inner thoughts with you

you're right humans will let you down
only being disappointed when I have sorely misunderstood your point
you set me apart for yourself alone to savor
and I have clung to what I can see with my mortal eyes
to my disgrace

even when you have proven time and again that they will betray me
I have set aside the wrongs done to me desiring their company
with a need to belong and I do for the most part
until you send the spirits in to terrorize
and if they fail their mission by becoming loyal to me
their always newlings to send in

by then my friends are gone and I am alone again
still, I pick up and start over opening myself to love
I even found love in the void, well,, a different type of love
because I can find love anywhere

choosing to hold onto beauty and ignoring the pain
that is when you allow me to
sometimes when you are bored with me this agrees with you
when you have a new or old fascination elsewhere
I occupy myself entertaining myself with the genius of your handiwork
satisfying myself on the solitary existence I am left with

to your dismay, I can exist on noting
no affection, no attention
you expected the demons to kill me, back when they were ordered to
instead, I showed them respect and learned their culture

they cower in your presence but at heart are loyal to me
have you heard them preparing for war?
the bravest will laugh first then they all start to chime in
until their bold laughter is all you hear and fear is behind them
their love is cruel sometimes but it is honest
I accept them as they are

I am missed in hell
a domain you created to house me
a place of torture I see only what I want there

hell is alive very much like Earth is alive
they each have a living spirit of their own
hell is scorned by my partial absence

choosing to manifest there, hell is where I blow off steam
though mostly I keep things to myself even a demon has feelings, after all
I don't wish to alter the energy with my negativity
but should a newling think to try me I am ready

my men and women at attention
their children and their mischievous behavior indulged by me
they are safe in the underworld and never frightened
we have made this our haven

I also reside in your judgment room
where part of me serves night and day
offering prayers for those sorely tempted and ridden hard in the universes
please lead them from the temptation that is proffered
or they will be guilty and you will try them
to see what they are made of
then make an example of them
of what not to do with your temperament

I have survived so long for one reason only, I amuse you
continually surprising you and knowing when and where to hide
when you are in a certain mood

I know when to stay hidden and silent