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Damn You
2 weeks of bliss
and then it came
back to bite me
the urge to eat
zone out and for
a while not feel
Damn you ED
the aftermath is
often the worst
KO on my sofa
all i feel is guilt
disgust, shame
a failure of a girl
knowing i have to
do this all over the
cleansing fasting
and press repeat
i am freaking tired
of this infinite Cycle
afraid it will never stop
and then it came
back to bite me
the urge to eat
zone out and for
a while not feel
Damn you ED
the aftermath is
often the worst
KO on my sofa
all i feel is guilt
disgust, shame
a failure of a girl
knowing i have to
do this all over the
cleansing fasting
and press repeat
i am freaking tired
of this infinite Cycle
afraid it will never stop
Published 20th Apr 2024
Author's Note
I am more than the shell for my soul that is my body and every day I fight to remind myself of that - Demi Lovato
She used to be mine: https://youtu.be/53GIADHxVzM
She used to be mine: https://youtu.be/53GIADHxVzM
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20th Apr 2024 4:06pm
“My ED is not my identity”
I had that taped to my bathroom mirror for years until I believed it.
Holding you in thought, as always, D.
And constantly in awe of you.
I had that taped to my bathroom mirror for years until I believed it.
Holding you in thought, as always, D.
And constantly in awe of you.
21st Apr 2024 7:34am
“My ED is not my identity” > it's funny you mention that, I wrote that in one of my ED poems.
Thanks heaps for dropping by and leaving an amazing comment, I appreciate you 💕
Thanks heaps for dropping by and leaving an amazing comment, I appreciate you 💕
20th Apr 2024 4:27pm
21st Apr 2024 7:34am
20th Apr 2024 11:12pm
and press repeat
^
Right in the feels. Over and over again feeling the need to repeat, using all justification to make it feel right again. I'm going through this as well, and hoping that you can insulate your mind with the comfort of your internal contours, emotional achievements, and strong spirit. -hugs-
^
Right in the feels. Over and over again feeling the need to repeat, using all justification to make it feel right again. I'm going through this as well, and hoping that you can insulate your mind with the comfort of your internal contours, emotional achievements, and strong spirit. -hugs-
21st Apr 2024 7:36am
Sorry to hear you are going through this too :-(
If my write resonates with someone, make them feel less alone, it was worth posting.
Thanks heaps for your comment and openness. Stay strong 💕
If my write resonates with someone, make them feel less alone, it was worth posting.
Thanks heaps for your comment and openness. Stay strong 💕
21st Apr 2024 7:49pm
That urge to beat ourselves up for setbacks is SOOO hard to fight. We are so much more than the things we struggle with...they're merely facets of what made us into who we are...& you are a beautiful soul, sis! We'll keep fighting the battles...despite the exhaustion. Love you, girl!
22nd Apr 2024 10:58am
It is indeed so hard to fight.
I'm very aware we are more than the things we struggle with, that's why I don't identiy myself with my ED. Thank you so much for your comment & thoughts. Love you, sweet sis 💖
I'm very aware we are more than the things we struggle with, that's why I don't identiy myself with my ED. Thank you so much for your comment & thoughts. Love you, sweet sis 💖
