it's three in the goddamn morning, you're making me have a fucking existential crisis ~

{iii} i posted nudes on the internet for me, not for meaningless validation but you're a man, wtf would you know about it:
maybe, once
twice…
… a hundred times
i peeled back the sheets  
in your absence  
& thought of you ~  
it was a long,  
lonely moment  
of self-reflection,
on how i’d found  
everything i sought  
a few months  
before  
loosing my self-worth
in your foreskin  
 
{ii} i'm too confused to take my clothes off for you. god, you're so fucking hot. let me sit on your pretty face:  
is my skin  
still under your nails{¿}  
i tried to  
wash my insides of you  
every night since  
but no one feels
the way you do
 
{i} we're all just tryna nut, aren't we {?} stop watching my homemade porn:
wonder if  
the beauty spot  
on my
inner thigh tastes
of desperation