Oral

 
Its been years
 
When I last saw you
 
Reliving fears
 
Memories that don’t haunt you
 
“Do this for me.”
 
I remember that clear
 
“Just open your mouth”
 
Your asking was sincere
 
I look at it again
 
Why was it so swollen
 
So Thick
 
“Just try, take the tip”
 
I nodded when I went down
 
All my fears wearing a dark gown
 
One face, in particular, flashed before my eyes
 
Sister Carol stating my demise
 
‘Don’t judge me’
 
That’s what I thought.
 
As I lick my lips,
 
And I took what he brought.
 
A mingle of flavors,
 
Crashed into my mouth.
 
Irish spring, cologne, and musk,
 
All went south.
 
He pushed further,
 
Into the hole.
 
Barely taking it all,
 
Had nothing to hold.
 
“Relax your jaw,
 
Then swallow it in”
 
‘Is he crazy?’
 
Cried the sister again.
 
Steeling  myself.
 
Stiffining my back.
 
“I'll give him this’ I thought
 
I can't take it back.
 
Faster he rode.
 
Quickening the pace.
 
“I’m cuming. Stay still.
 
Let it go on your face.”
 
He pulled out.
 
And corded rope
 
Escaped my mouth.
 
 It landed on it’s mark.
 
On my face,
 
On swollen lips, as they part.
 
“Did you like
 
What we did?
 
Don’t be afraid to say.”
 
“It was my first time. Maybe
 
I will another day.”
 
Another time did not come.
 
Janine took over.
 
I felt so dumb.
 
Now I have a new lover.
 
It's been years since it happened,
 
I acquired the taste.
 
Too bad you were in a hurry.
 
In such a haste.
 
The fear I remember,
 
Was a time gone by.
 
He let me go.
 
And I did not die.