Mea Culpa

Read this 4 times
The spineless often are the abusers
Killer last 4 lines
Saddened by your past

Oh wow, 4 times, I must have something good here.

Grateful you think of those last 4 lines as killer lines and as for my past: it is what it is.

Thanks heaps PoetSpeaks.

Excellent... from start to finish...

Can't ask for more. Thanks :-)

So many children feel as if they do. Well conveyed.

We all carry a cross with us, it's part of life.

Thank you for leaving your thoughts, Ahavati. xo

Inter-generational trauma - it's the only way I can get my head around it. Dealing with the fall-out is a life-long challenge.

Yep, trauma seems to go from generation to generation.

Unfortunately. Thanks for your visit, Josh.

Fantastic write
Love and light
Ron x

Thanks heaps, Ron :-)

been there as far as the abuse goes, i survived

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger. Thanks for your comment, Wolf.

Dear D,

Such a heartfelt a write. It made me think of all those who’ve suffered this situation and your closing line of the crosses to bear. Stellar.   Beautifully written spotlight on such a painful subject. H🌷

Dear H,

This piece goes indeed much further than my own experience. Ergo my author's note.
As for the closing line, carrying his cross was what started this write.

Thank you so much for your heartwarming words 💕

There's some dark edges to this that have the feel of almost tangible but almost hidden. Like the adult mind of a traumatized child...reflecting on the why's & trying to make sense of their experience in conjunction with what could have been that of the parent. Children definitely take on the weight of parental actions. I refused to allow my family to speak of my daughter's father for that reason. I didn't want her taking on board the things he'd done & making them her guilt & shame. Sending you hugs & love, little sis

You are so right, children take on the weight from their parents including unsolved traumas.
To me the most difficult part is the not knowing, having to fill in the blanks, but by now I have peace with that. I applaud you for protecting your daughter from the things her father done.

Love and hugs back at ya, my sweetest sister.

This is powerful!! I can feel the muted screams and anger when the younger self was going through. I have gone though something similar.

Oh wow, thanks heaps.

It's always a huge compliment, when someone can feel my words.

Sorry to hear you went through something similar.

What an amazing comment, thanks heaps.

It once was explained to me that when a parent doesn't work through their trauma, he or she carries it on to their children (child, in my case) I am at peace with it, with the not knowing (ergo the "felt") as far as possible, but it was far from easy as a child.

Among the most tragic made me speechless...

Great entry to the competition thank you for sharing your story.

You're so very welcome, thanks heaps for your comment 🙏🏻