Tears from a Friend

 
Temporary insanity
the thing that happened to me
can strike at any time
I woke up one day and realised
for the first seventeen years of my life
I had been walking on a river of ice
and I could have fallen through at any moment
straight into hell

Suddenly I didn't know who I was
and I was scared
of me
and of what I might do
I was scared of the people around me
my own family
I didn't know them
they didn't know me
and even my mother
was a terrifying stranger

I was afraid of life
I was afraid of death
At midnight every night
I was afraid to fall asleep
I would watch TV
for as long as I could
any program, even soap operas
trying to keep awake
for as long as my eyes would stay open

Each morning when I awoke
it was a relief
I had made it through the night
but I was one hundred percent sure
I was mad
I was split into a thousand pieces

I couldn't tell anyone how I felt
no-one knew but me
I was afraid they would put me in hospital
and I would die there

Then one day I woke up
after eight months
of living like that 
I opened my eyes
and I was fixed.