fantasies of "jumping ship"

       
       
       
    indoctrinational camps with its many layers-will have you believe in answered "prayers"; there are no "ears" on the other side of prayers-just an "all seeing eye" that's everywhere....      
       
    I know for certain that I don't belong here; born on soil tainted for many years; I'm very much jaded-they've tried to battery my back and I grew to hate it....      
       
    programming is real- my spirit wants to run far for the hills away from an entrapment-a system with a bs program to be celebrated....      
       
   might as well have been born with a gun at one's back or a knife at one's neck-history "needs to be forgotten" not just under a rug swept....      
       
   programs to take pride in a godamn lie....one can't afford to fantasize actual freedom, the way it was before.... though ideally better.... I don't belong here.... I'd rather "die"....      
       
          
   I believe.... I believe alright-not in words written on pages, or any form of enslavement.... but there's no where to jump ship to....      
     
      all is compromised....      
     
I don't belong here....
 
    where they want every heart, mind, & soul on every level "dead to rights...."