Awakened

Glanced at destiny    
Truth is a mystery  
Crazed voices laughing at me  
Hidden cries left to be  
Studied this picture  
Subdued in time  
Haunted and tortured  
Left to feel fine  
Dancing with spirits  
On a cloud  
I finally can hear it  
I have been endowed  
I chose this golden day  
Left to wait and see  
As memories drift away  
Scarred and never free  
Insanity I don't want this mind  
Disillusioned it makes no sense  
The reality never did I find  
Just confusion and the essence  
Between heartache and happiness lies a fear  
And answers I just don't have  
My approaching destiny getting nearer  
Looking at me you laugh  
Reflected back over the ages    
Judged but didn't know  
Repeated so many phrases  
How hard it is to let go  
Mind struck by the thunder    
Lost from the frightening    
Tripped twice down under  
Left under flashing lightning  
Soaked caught out in the rain  
Hang on I'll figure it out  
Sanitys edge of insane    
Clueless without a doubt  
What is real    
What do I know  
Pretend what I feel  
Or is this for show  
Staged and stashed    
My buried memories  
Quickly I dashed  
And hid while under seize  
What lies ahead  
In the future can I see  
What I think I know I said  
But was it meant for me  
Voyaged through time  
Journeyed the darkest maze  
The light will now shine  
And dawn on my craze  
Dried blood now forming    
A shaped hazed heart  
But is it alarming    
When it's thrashed apart  
Burning flames have fought  
Cautioned as it winds  
Sending blames of thought  
Lay down masterminds    
Living life to live with death  
And displace all the guilt  
Starting with a fresh breath  
And see what can be built  
This journey I finally took  
It complexed my new me  
I escaped my death that shook  
I'm awakened and can finally see