Without A Trace

The thoughts racing through my head  
Telling me what needs to be done  
Listen to every word that's said  
Silently laughing as I load my gun  
And I know it's finally time  
This confusion no longer can i take  
If suicide is my life's crime  
Then I confess my love my mistake  
Slowly as my dreams all faded  
And I relive every memory  
Above me this dark cloud shaded  
Crying rain my eternal misery  
And only better days lie ahead  
How could they be any worse  
Twisted fantasies of me now dead  
Anything to escape this blackened curse  
This life I live all complicated  
And the secrets in my mind  
The games being played I hate it  
The answers soon you'll find  
In my heart numbness I feel  
As I analyze these choices  
If I was dead would it be real  
Or just more haunting voices  
Telling me I shouldn't live  
That I'm a waste of time and space  
The life I lived I cannot forgive  
as I disappear without a trace