A Battle of Faith

It's me again
I touched myself in way I'm not supposed to,
I turned to porn even when I promised I won't do.
Now I feel too guilty to even approach you
I know this is not serving me
I know this not safe for me
The pleasure can't compare to the joy and peace it takes from me.
I hate it, and I hate it more than my fresh love it, feels like a warm hug but it is a bear hug and it is breaking me.
 
In the depths of my soul, a battle rages on,
A constant struggle, a fight that's never won.
I vowed to walk the righteous path, to never stray,
But time and again, I find myself led astray.
 
Oh, how I yearn for redemption and grace,
To break free from this cycle, this endless chase.
I promised to resist temptation's alluring call,
Yet I stumble and fall, time after time, I fall.
 
The weight of my sins, heavy upon my heart,
I seek forgiveness, but where do I start?
In the realm of faith, I find solace and peace,
But my actions betray me, my weaknesses increase.
 
I seek guidance from the divine, from above,
To conquer these demons, to find true love.
For in the eyes of God, I am but a flawed being,
Yet His mercy and compassion are all-encompassing.
 
I must rise from the ashes, like a phoenix reborn,
To break these chains, to no longer be torn.
With each passing day, I strive to be better,
To resist temptation, to become a true believer.
 
Though I may stumble, I won't let despair win,
For in my heart, the flame of faith burns within.
I'll keep fighting this battle, no matter how tough,
For in the end, it's my faith that will be enough.
 
So, I'll continue to pray, to seek forgiveness anew,
Hoping that one day, my promises will come true.
For in the realm of religion, there's always a chance,
To find redemption, to break free from this dance.