Trapped in captivity

Chaos entered my fantasy  
As I mesmerized reality  
Three dimensions surrounded me  
I sought escape but couldn't see  
Smoke clouds enclosed me as if I died  
Shadows stalked me while I tried to hide  
And bloody thoughts cut my inside  
The desperate measures and pain I cried  
And the unusual were the usual days  
My mind manipulated my own craze  
And changed this tunnel into a maze  
I sought escape but a voice persuades  
Me so I turned around  
The night strengthens the underground  
I'm being chased by what I found  
Life has a way of knocking me down  
As I memorize my suicide  
I forgot the past once denied  
My attempts to know the end crucified  
My life that lacked respect and pride  
So here I weep and cry in pain  
Upon my shoulders this world has slain  
Bodies of horror constantly complain  
This insane world I cannot be sane  
With no escape only means to lose  
No decisions no questions to choose  
My mind detectives that are the sleuths  
Innocence killed the ungodly few whose  
Lives were not forgiven and why  
They waited for their turn to die  
Weak voiced unrepenting and teary eyed  
Just know you now that I tried  
For insanity is the sanity of reality  
As eternity is the beginning of a mystery  
Created by history imagined by fantasy  
That leaves us all trapped in captivity