Chaos Theory

 
disconnected I feel the walls closing in
darkness comes on strong and I embrace it
it is a part of me so I connive to blend in
cruel faces with a ferocity you don't know
I get scared but I don't show it

turning in the energy I rise through the ranks
my audacity is something else
I dare to fight the madness
it is and I understand it

spelling on the air
I release my magic
it tumbles through time
and space giving me a voice in the abyss

looking into the past I see my face
it looks different than it does now
my voice is strange too
but it's me gaining knowledge picking up speed

I exalt the feelings I have
delusional perhaps
but it speaks to me
I hear them praise me
and I utter don't
I don't want adoration
I want to blend
I summon my illness and I spit it out
it is a seeded code
a sacred language that has been spoken since time began
I was there I know it

I quiet myself and I feel the man taking a second look at me
I wish to fade in the chaotic storm

instead, I rise