LULLABY

Relatable. For me it's the smoke. A real struggle.

I must have quit a dozen times over years before I finally stopped. It is indeed a struggle.  
Thanks for reading.  
This poem seemed funny to me. You have to be there, I guess. I'm a little warped anyway.

This made me laugh out loud! I talk to myself in a similar way. I don't always listen.
❤️k

That makes me smile. I'm glad you see the humor in it.
Thanks for reading and commenting, k.

Not to add too fine a point on all of this, but for me it's existential. I have just a very small amount of lung function left. Marijuana seems to be the thing which best calms me down when my emotions are going nuclear (which happens frequently; I am going through a romantic breakup AT THE AGE OF 80--ALMOST!) so...jeez louise. Gasping if I do, damned if I don't.

I hate that, Mrd.
My wife uses marijuana, but eats it instead of smoking. She says the effect is the same but takes longer to kick in. It seems to help with pain.
I am grateful for being able to quit smoking. I have issues related to all those years of satisfying my nicotine addiction, but am so far lucky. It unnerves me to even say that -- i know things can turn on a dime.
I sincerely hope things lighten up for you.
May the gods, real or imagined, bless and keep you.
And thank you again.
Mike

Thnx,Mike. I never expected to make it remotely this far, so however it works out will be however it works out. Fatalism. Still, I have a couple of things I want to accomplish before I check out the other side, poetry, history of the family for those who come after in the family, all that.

You're a mensch, my friend.