burning us down

 
I'm torn between begging you not to let me fade
...from your heart...your mind...
...immortalizing me like a permanent engraving
an irreplaceable moment in your existence
...and throwing rocks into the engine of your memory
sabotage its capability to retain...maintain
making us merely a flaming blip on the radar
flash fire...dumpster fire...whatever
there's nothing gritty about me
you know that...count on it
I'm soft & pliable...so fucking compliant
but we shredded a few sheets
broke fragile mementos with our recklessness
...mostly my will to fight
...my equilibrium
...my inner fire
guess that's what ignited our loins
set us aflame with self-destructive tendencies
but here we are
staring across the inferno at who we used to be
I'm building walls & you're doing your best to drag me back
into the lava flow we arrogantly set loose
simply by me...
...loving you