Phantom

 
painful knowing, I miss you
my soul reaches to touch  
but you've gone back into the shadows
I call to you in vain
there's no reaching you where you've disappeared
 
my mind tells me it's hopeless
you can love only one
I love you both
could you love him too?
 
cloistered doubt distrubs my thoughts
needful keen please give me peace
my lusts build and I can't tell you
my decadent fantasies
 
the way you touched me
moved me in my vulnerabiltiy
blushing wildly I always felt bare in your gaze
you knew me down deep
caressed my ego
stripped me of my pride
 
masochistic desires you understood
Sadistic in your commands
I came undone at your say so
stripped me of my power
then retreat into the background
cloaked in mysteries and secrets
 
you've had the luxury of knowing me
I'm left forlorn and bereft of feeling
 
wondering did you love me?