girly girl 101...fail

 
I feel like there was a rule we were supposed to learn...
...maybe in school...
...on how to be a "proper" girl
I don't know what year it would have been but I missed it
that thing of not being heard...
...only ever seen
...even then only fully made up & artfully dressed
the war paint face, I reckon 
again...yeah...I didn't get it
and that lesson in the art of flirting
...empty...giggly...vapid
nope, not me
I was the one with a mouth...
never trying to stand out...
...it just happened...
in the way that always attracts bullies
couldn't understand the reason for teasing
I was & still am...just me
unadorned...blemished...
...and unapologetically feminine
despite lacking those particular skills
taking comfort in knowing...
...my beautiful vulnerability is something...
...they've never been able to kill