Will there ever be another Love for me?

A True Love for thee?
A light of my life?
A True Love that brings Empathy to me?
To truly care for me?
To bring everything Loving into life?
To also bring a fire within my loins?
Or is this all there is for me?
I reminisce on past loves.
To when i was much younger and care free in life.
Now that life is very close to it's end, I think a Love  for me is non existing.
Time has gone by taking everything dear to my heart.
Family, Friends, True Loves.
There won't be a new chapter in my life.
The only chapter i forsee is the last one.
The Finale.
Oh how i hate the way I've lived out this life.
Too much sin i chose to live in.
Partying, drunkeness, and lusting.
I envied others and the many young beautiful women they took to their beds.
I didn't have the charisma, the manly charm to persuade women.
I admit i was mentally weak.
Too afraid to confront, to speak.
No self esteem.
No will power.
And for sure not the looks.
Never was one with the looks, that drew women in.
Looks can be deceiving, is what i always say.
Just to see if that would help me.
I should've known better.
Nothing i ever say or do will bring a woman within' arms reach.
It's not for me, not in my destiny.
My looks have always been a problem in attracting women.
That and i'm not highly educated.
I am regarded as the nothing.
The past relationships i've had although few.
That's all i feel are all.
The End.
The end of everything.