Poor Pitiful We

"But I'm going insane because I don't have control." ... is possibly a big reason for your despression right now. After all, to have control is to be you, the person that's lost. I don't have the answers but I will say this about life. We can't do anything about the past. What's gone is gone. I know from my own experience that if I dwell too much on what has passed, I get tearful, especially after a few glasses of Malbec. Time goes by so fast that it's almost a shock to think, once I was 25, puffing my chest out, strutting my stuff on the dance floor etc but now the energy levels are lower & maybe my passion for life is a little lower too. Setbacks grate at us, life experience weighs heavy. But... the present is all we have & unfortunately it doesn't stop some of us worrying about an uncertain future either. Just my view, that's all & to tell you that I hear you. Happy Halloween to you, Jimmy & the rest of your lovely family. 😊

Thank you for your kind words. Love you as always

I'm just a cynic, too.
And I can't seem to quit.
I try and I try to be good and do good
But it just feels like I'm living a lie
I want to be good enough
Something useful and meaningful
To have purpose
And be beautiful to someone
Yet I can't feel anything
That feels right
I actually have a mostly good life
I have a mostly good husband
He says he loves his wife
I'm still raising our children
I'm still trying to live life
But something always feels missing
Will it always be struggle and strife?
No, it can't be that
We go from great to hate at the drop of a hat
I'm always fighting a war
Either front line or reserve
Expertly dodging balls thrown at me in a curve
It's a shameful addiction now
Not as bad as before
But I don't want it anymore!
And yet that's not really it.. is it?
I just feel like I've quit
Like I'm not me any more
I don't know who I ever was before
I feel like I'm losing
It's just so confusing
I don't even want to win
I don't want to play this game
I'm going insane
Because I never had any control
I don't know what I even want anymore
To have everything?
To leave it all
And start again?
How do you win
If there are players missing?
What the hell am I missing!?
Someone?..
Tell me please!
Anybody?!?!
Can you hear me????
I just feel so lonely..
Maybe it's just me?
No, it's not just me.
Maybe I'm crazy
I am crazy.
You feel like this, too
Many of you
Don't cry.
Poor me loves poor you

I wasn't sure what you were doing with my poem at first...but I love what you did. It's beautiful and made me cry. Thank you

Don't worry, I'm not taking any credit for your thoughts or words, lovely.  I just wanted to piggyback with some feedback and shared emotions. ✌ and love, sweet lady.

It's hard to say what makes us all so rabid when life should actually be smooth sailing. At times this goes to show we are our very own complications in this life boo. Be good, great piece of writing here Lady

Thank you my friend. Much love ❤️