summary of everyday

I woke up
2 hours late for school
2 hours too early for my biophilia
and just in time to disappoint my mom

i sit in bed
with dreadful covers over me
hating the loop of life
hating the rewind of it all

i take my time to get ready
praying i wont make it in time
hoping i won’t have to sit in my miserable desk
with my painful pencil
and my pathetic paper

i sit at lunch alone
counting the minutes til my next class
counting the hours left of school
counting the days left in this year
counting the years left in this life

 i smile through the rest of my day
clenching my jaw
with a glossy glare
and 4 nails digging at my palms

i get home
my mom is there
but only partly
so i walk past her ghost

and i go to my room
i lay dirty in my saddened sheets
and close my glassy eyes
and then..

i woke up
2 hours late for school