Before and after you

I want to bloom with the flowers
Or flow with the air
Get lost in time for hours
And live with no care
 
I want to burn with the sun
And shine like the moon
Live with beings as one
And maybe,
Just maybe you’ll come back too
 
But flowers don’t bloom  
Not in this weather that I’m under
And it seems that you’ve gotten lost with others
 
I don’t feel the air flowing through my lungs  
I feel the hatred I’ve inhaled  
Hatred you spout in your lying tongue  
But you could care less if my breathing is ailed
Your lovely lies becoming unveiled
 
And now time feels endless
You watch my suffering through the clock
 I bash my head til I’m senseless  
Rhythmically with the sound that goes tick-tock
 
And maybe you’ll never get it
How the sun burned nicer when you were here
Or how the moon dulled down when you disappeared