deeper

 
nervous laughter sprang out of me
I was seriously in love with you
and the power of emotions overcame me
 
I was reduced to looking like a clown
trying to divert the attention of my nervousness  
you saw me in the moment, shaken to my core
you would be my undoing
 
I cradle my soul so deep inside myself  
you couldn't see me in the shadows
peering into your soul, tentatively  
shyly observing your nuances
the little quirks that made you, you
 
I loved you from the start
and told you so
but not from my vulnerability
I answered you from my whoredom
a cult groupie of yours
and you've seen a fair few
 
so today I am overcome by the feeling
needing you deep
are you too stoic to see?
the lady trembling in front of you
asking you to come deeper
and take a chance on me