vulnerability

 
I confess I love you
but I am helpless
I can't fathom the depths of you
inside me I reach to touch you
treading waters in your abyss
just for a kiss

a thought assaults me
I'm not good enough
my low self esteem goads me
give it up woman you're over your head

I rise on my tiptoes in my intellect
to caress your cerebellum
you're an intellectual man
I am smart in my way
gifted in others
you cut with your knowledge of the world

I don't think you have time for one like me
awkward and odd
a macabre specter residing in the shadows

you are keen on me, I know

but I wonder will it last?

will you ditch me in the end?

Master over the Sadistic wit and need
I need you more than you need me
I want you more
I crave and I ache
I break a little every day
I pine for your affections

in my inner sanctum, burn for you
throwing my lusts into the fire
so I can smolder in the flame
thrashing in the heat
better to burn than live in the emptiness

you are my Sadist
licking this letter and my vulnerability
I know you watch me

I wonder can I trust you?