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small sparks and a bad day
1.
My mum sends me articles
and videos with titles like
"How to overcome clutter paralysis"
and I'm not sure if she's being helpful
or trying to find me in the mirror
2.
Today I want to set the house on fire
because I'm tired of doing dishes
and getting decision fatigue
from looking at my wardrobe
as though my clothes will somehow
make me beautiful
as opposed to just making me, me
No matter how many outfits I try on
I can't make myself feel better
3.
My son has thrown sultanas all over the floor
in an unnumbered 52 card pick up
that probably outnumbers 52
and I stare at them
willing myself to go get the broom
but I sit and continue to stare at them instead
4.
Grief robs me of myself
and I'm tired of feeling like an asshole
because "no" has become
the most used word in my vocabulary
and I want to be the kind of person
who says yes to life
rather than "fuck off"
every time a bad day rolls around
My mum sends me articles
and videos with titles like
"How to overcome clutter paralysis"
and I'm not sure if she's being helpful
or trying to find me in the mirror
2.
Today I want to set the house on fire
because I'm tired of doing dishes
and getting decision fatigue
from looking at my wardrobe
as though my clothes will somehow
make me beautiful
as opposed to just making me, me
No matter how many outfits I try on
I can't make myself feel better
3.
My son has thrown sultanas all over the floor
in an unnumbered 52 card pick up
that probably outnumbers 52
and I stare at them
willing myself to go get the broom
but I sit and continue to stare at them instead
4.
Grief robs me of myself
and I'm tired of feeling like an asshole
because "no" has become
the most used word in my vocabulary
and I want to be the kind of person
who says yes to life
rather than "fuck off"
every time a bad day rolls around
Published 11th Sep 2023
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13th Sep 2023 10:25am
I’ve only just read this right now I’m just sitting here not knowing what to say
13th Sep 2023 10:25pm
13th Sep 2023 11:12pm
hello beautiful Indie no clothes won't make me beautiful either but I have started wearing things out of my comfort zone because they are an expression of me and to my surprise strangers even have been commenting on my outfits... hang in there lady 💕
14th Sep 2023 1:25am
I've been aiming for comfortable but still stylish lately. Pretty sure most days I just look like a hilly billy though, bumming around in overalls, cause most days my life doesn't call for style.
14th Sep 2023 6:56am
Dear I,
#4 speaks volumes to me. I appreciate the honesty of just trying to cope with the day to day of life. It can be so monotonous. I must say though the idea of rocking it in overalls…there’s a bit of fashion there especially if you’re rocking it with a funky tee shirt. High fashion indeed 😊
I always admire your ability to write the “real”. H🌷
#4 speaks volumes to me. I appreciate the honesty of just trying to cope with the day to day of life. It can be so monotonous. I must say though the idea of rocking it in overalls…there’s a bit of fashion there especially if you’re rocking it with a funky tee shirt. High fashion indeed 😊
I always admire your ability to write the “real”. H🌷
14th Sep 2023 10:32pm
