Before. I Leave

I
Sometimes think
To myself
DO I really
Have what it takes
The fortitude
The stubbornness
To stay the course
Again
I
Tried before
Years ago
It took me months
But I allowed
Distraction to attack
I never went back
And now
I keep thinking
Is it not time
To try again
To explore
To take a look around
To
Psychologicaly See
Before
I leave
THIS Reality
Who
OR What

I Really Am

Or wait
Believing I know