softer

 
my feelings of doubt played havoc on me
I turn over the thoughts wondering what the matter was
it was internal strife

leading the way was my melancholy demeanor
with frustration highlighting the mood
anxiety followed after
the combination was blue

on such a lovely day
to feel so forlorn

was I ever happy?

moment to moment, yes
reviewing my life in reverie I was solemn
I secreted a great deal of myself away
interacting with others was beautiful
but I have hidden facets I know are too much to share

thoughts best left to dreaming
visions of my softer side too gentle to touch
I keep deep within my sacred hollows

where God alone seeks me out