We Were The Best Of Friends (C.L. 2012)

 
We Were The Best Of Friends (C.L.)



We shared dark humour, you were the funniest people
                  
The ones more than anything that I'd waited to meet

But at some point after leaving the Castle

You slowly turned your backs on me,

All of a sudden it had became too much hassle

So I found myself cast adrift, set free

I had given you every ounce of my strength

When you felt you were misunderstood by all

And now you've left, abandoned me here

Living back in solitude, waiting for the fall

How could I have been so stupidly naïve

To believe the truth behind every lie you told

To swallow down your promises placing heart on sleeve

Trusting and comforting for every pain that was sold

To stop my attempted suicide, when I really needed to talk
 
You all were no where to be seen, just answer-phones left on

Was it just one big game to you, another outline left in chalk

I don't believe you ever cared, maybe a tear if I'd gone

You've tried discounting everything, all those notes pushed under doors

But now you can't maintain eye contact, act as if you don't know

I've restudied all the scribblings I made, left scattered on the floor

I gave out phone, text and email accounts, so no reason for the silence

My three best had stabbed me in the back, a council of compliance

My three best friends, who I thought would always be there

Would slowly turn their backs on me without the slightest care

You would never see my hurt and I never explained my pain

You never showed interest in what I needed, you made that very plain

Now I know what you are, wise to your tricks and schemes

I guess that's what you wanted from me, just a body to give you dreams

So maybe that's why I remain so naïve as this ends

You'll only tell me that we remain the best friends

Like Julius the great Ceaser before, you'll they stab me in the back.

Why do I still love you each with passion, even after all of that?