Age

a curious reality, as i never expected to live beyond the age of 30, so made no preparations, no wills, no plans, yet i'm still here, and imagined i'd go no further in live like my faves of joplin, hendrix, morrison etc, so simply lived my life floating around, like a lost windswept cloud, no thunder, just the rain of tears, trickling, and fickle, and alone, like an an overflowing stream, drifting aimlessly into new dimensions, no intentions, lost in flight, floating. and i'm still floating now, despite all my awareness, and knowledge, and experiences, ive realised that i still know nothing, as i now have to come to terms with facing a past, of a broken heart, and impossible solutions, and sacrifices, that no-one should ever have to make, and when made, will haunt you until the end of time. some decisions are impossible to find an answer, and when it involves two people you so  deeply love, and that no matter what choice you make, you know it's the impossible one, and will haunt you, and break your heart forever. sometimes, this all feels to much to bear, today is one of those days, so listening to music........