Will You Allow (me)

under skin  
tearing at my soul  
i am back for more  
could be called abuse  
i can't stop  
 
whatever lies  
in this heart  
wants the chaos  
you bring to the world  
an urge that will not die  
 
behind the calm  
beauty has claws  
still blue eyes  
before the storm  
i will  run into its rage  
 
on a cliff  
waiting anticipating  
an emotional landslide  
crashing down  
with the rocks of love  
 
is it wrong  
to hate the silence  
after the thunder  
has died away
need your noise  
 
 
give me the suffering  
for the glimpse  
of heaven you offer  
any lover  
you allow close