a good self immolation

 

trying to discover something
new

(the)

-a diversion
-an avoidance

                                (night)

-a blind god eye to euthanasia
or at least a good self
immolation

(trembles)

dog days fever pitched
and beaten down

                              (in)

-drugs don't work anymore
-alcohol doesn't work anymore
-sex doesn't work anymore

(it's)

having the keys to the kingdom
no longer matters if there is no
kingdom to enter

                             (dreadful)

we think we have
so much

(fear)

know so
much

                            (of)

are so
much

(the)

but we are like small,
damaged children

                             (sun)

fascinated by bits
of broken string

(never)

brightly colored
balls rolling across
the floor

                           (rising)

and busted up
crayons

(again)