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goodnight, my monocot

i'll ease my heart into your palms
and though i expect nothing
i still long for you
yet, somehow, i do not know
what i yearn for

please swallow me
consume my naivety so it is no more
until it nettles you no longer
or perhaps until you are simply
not hungry anymore

but i feed a monocot
and all i may do is let it grow into me
i'll guide you to your resting place
after you grow tired from the sugar
goodnight, my monocot

Written by drinkingflux

(mila throat)

Published 10th May 2023 | Edited 23rd May 2023

Author's Note

the first draft of this poem i wrote when i was about 16 or 17 years old. i wrote it about my relationship with my father and i feel like that is all you need to know to be able to understand the poem and hopefully maybe resonate with it as well if you also have a difficult relationship with a parental figure.
this poem was inspired by one of my favorite artists at that age, during a time where i was struggling and just needed something to hold on to. something that i felt like understood me, even if it never met me and never would.
the song that inspired me to write this poem: dull knife pt.II by planning for burial.
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Copyright � 2023 by Mila Throat.

#father #loneliness #vulnerability

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Re. goodnight, my monocot

Bluevelvete

11th May 2023 4:16am

There's something to be said for the various versions of art, music, writing, poetry etc that affects us so deeply when we're in our most trying formative teen years. I know there are many artists and songs that have carried me through when almost nothing else could. I completely relate to your Author's note and I applaud your introspection and the bravery of such raw openness that your maiden ink shares with us.

It's a pleasure to have you here with us, it's hope to read more in the days ahead.

🌹-B

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drinkingflux (mila throat)

11th May 2023 5:04pm

thank you for your response and i appreciate the time you took to read my work. it is comforting to hear that someone relates and understands my experiences especially when coming from a place of vulnerability and openness. thank you for the warm welcome and i hope you stop by again to enjoy my pieces in the future. :)