My Dearest Fred

My Dearst Fred,

First let me start off by thanking you for your 23 years of friendship. It's hard to fathom that you are not longer here. My heartaches as I think of the laughs we shared and times we shared. Those memories I will cherish in my heart forever. I am writing this letter for a different reason than to say goodbye. I am writing to tell you...You're friendship saved my life. You see in my junior year of high school my mental health began to tank. I was bullied in class for being to big, I was told I would never have a job with dealing numbers because my math skills would never be more than a fit grade level and I didn't have very many friends my own age. The one I did have she was so toxic and all about her that, no matter what I said it didn't matter. At least when I would talk to you, you really listened and valued what I said. You never found me annoying and if you did you never said it to my face. You showed your appreciation of my company. No one seemed to do it then. I was suicidal, especially in 2015. I always told you I was going to ve a Paremedic/firefighter, but I couldn't even get into the program. I felt like I let you down, I let myself down. My whole life had crumbled in front of me but I am so grateful I had you in my life. You were a light in my darkest days. For that I thank you. I wish I could have thanked you while you were still alive. It's hard knowing you are gone but I can not wait for our hug when we are reunited one day.
With love,
Court