Things Forgotten

i tried hard
to avoid
a trap

but ended up
creating one
for myself anyway

the more
logical and rational
i tried to be

the more i felt

trapped
drained
stressed out

i forgot
there is no
perfect plan

no perfect path exists

no matter what
there is always
uncertainty

i forgot

i’ve
been through
hardships

always
made it
to the other side

stronger

i forgot
that I was
able to learn

i forgot
that i am
resilient

i let
fear
convince me

that being uncomfortable
losing a few bucks
making a few mistakes

would mean
the end
of me

i let
fear
convince me

discomfort
risk
or looking stupid

might
threaten
my survival

it sounds crazy
saying it
out loud

allowing myself
to be hijacked
by fear was far

more dangerous
than any path
i may have chosen

i forgot
there is no
perfect plan

no perfect path exists

no matter what
there is always
uncertainty

no matter what
i will have to
put in the work

no matter what
there  will be risks

no matter what
mistakes will be made

no matter what
i will be uncomfortable

no matter what
i will look stupid
(from time to time)

this doesn’t mean
i’m flawed

just afraid

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